FEELING GREAT

BEEN FULLY CONTENT, NOT LETTING ANYTHING/ANYONE GET TO ME MENTALLY. IVE BEEN ABLE TO SMILE MORE AND HAVE A BETTER LIGHT OF THINGS. I JUST REALIZED THAT NO ONE CARES MORE FOR ME THAN ME, AND I CANT EXPECT PEOPLE TO LOVE ME MORE THAN ME NOR SHOULD I EXPECT PEOPLE TO ACT THE WAY I WANT THEM TO. PEOPLE ARE WHO THEY ARE...CANT CHANGE THAT, SO GUESS WHAT I'M NOT CHANGING ME EITHER.... EXCEPT MOVING TOWARDS BETTERING ME!!

ME

I REMEMBER A TIME WHEN I WAS AWAYS HAPPY. WAS LONG AGO, BUT I WAS HAPPY JUST BEING ME AND DOING WHAT FELT GOOD. I WANT THAT TIME BACK AGAIN AND IM DETERMINED TO GET IT BACK.

FROM THIS DAY FORTH, IM FOR ME....ME....ME!! I GOTTA GET BACK TO DOING WHAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD.

TIED....... I GUESS

I GUESS FROM THIS POINT I'M SOMEHOW TIED.... WE WENT TO COUPLES COUNSELING AND WE BOTH WANT TO REMAIN IN THE RELATIONSHIP AND WE BOTH AGREED THAT WE WOULD DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY.

I SOMEHOW FEEL TIED BECAUSE I KNOW I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST TO GIVE THIS THING THE COUNSELOR ASKED FOR A SHOT...BUT I KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT SOMETHINGS GONNA FAIL, OR SHOULD I THINK MORE OPTIMISTIC?? I DON'T KNOW BUT SOMEHOW SEEMS THAT MEN THESE DAYS DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT A MONOGAMOUS RELATIONSHIP IS...AND I'M SEVERALLY GETTING TIRED OF WASTING TIME!!

UPDATES LATER, WISH ME LUCK!! O, and Im soooo not trying to mold anymore.